The Other Side You could not know, you, who live a stranger to my world, that as I look at you and question your expression and what lies in your eyes. When I listen to your words and define them by my story giving meaning from all that framed my childhood in abuse. Perhaps, it might be thought that what I comment might be seen as some unmerited, judgmental aside, a criticism unworthy of your truth for I do not know you any more than you can see beneath the appearance we both present. How could you know it really isn't in my heart to hold you to a scalpel sharp dissection of all you are ? I cannot tell you that beneath my searching gaze and perhaps intrusive wond'ring this and that, listening with fine-tuned ear for all discrepencies shown in your response, that all I want to know is that perhaps THIS time I have found a place where I fit in. That in you I would not be an oddity, shorn of what most deem is "normal". That with you I might reach a place of true acceptance and belonging so foreign to my world. Please do not reflect disdain for my vulnerability hidden far behind veneer of seeming confidence and competence. Constantly I am searching an end to aloneness and dead end friendships. You will never know, for I shall not reveal to any, close or distant, how this longing for a sense of my reality eats at my soul. Wondering if the day will ever come when I can feel I am not beyond help. I can only discover this by looking at you, who does not know my world I am not judging you but searching for the other side safe from Hurt. ********************** Goessoftly www.goessoftlyishere.com (permission for reprints is required)  
 | LOVE THE CHILD | YOU DO NOT KNOW ME | Contemplating Suicide | ON THE COUCH | Can you sit and do NOTHING ? | LOSS ( a friend) | The Emperor and Silence is a Vote | Two Poems | I MISS You,Friend | The Other Side | WHAT WILL THE ANSWER BE ? | One Small Tear | I Wish | | THE HEALING PROCESS | DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER | POETRY | Biographical Entries | |
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